I think my journal is really way past due for another update, as my last one is in the middle of summer and now Christmas is coming up way too fast. Maybe if I'd never used the journal feature here in the first place, I wouldn't feel obligated to keep thinking of new stuff to write about so that my main page doesn't start to feel too stale.

I still need to go Christmas shopping, mainly for my brother and sister. I'm just not sure what they like, which leads me to believe I don't know them as well as I should. Although a lot of the time, I don't even know what I like any more, I'm probably easy to shop for.
I don't know if I should bother trying to get my dad anything. He's selling the house I grew up in and callously threw out a lot of my childhood belongings, and I'm still peeved about that. It doesn't matter that it's probably a lot of stuff I haven't properly looked at in nearly two decades, like my old colorforms or Smurf fan club newsletters; it's just an incredibly inconsiderate and heartless thing to have no regard for the past like that.

My dad and his girlfriend bought a new house, and my siblings and I were invited to spend xmas there, but none of us are too keen to them up on that offer. I've been up there once, and if you can ignore the fact that the previous owner was murdered by her son with an axe, it's actually quite a nice house, but I'd personally prefer to have a Christmas free of awkwardness. "Oh, hi, Grandma. Sorry I can't be there for Christmas, but we're spending it with dad and the lady who has replaced your late daughter in his heart." Yeah, so there's not an icicle's chance in Hades of that happening.

I really need to learn to lighten up and maybe just write about more random, meaningless stuff so that every journal entry I attempt doesn't descend into this rambling, self-pitying thing. I don’t mean to sound so depressed all the time. I think I’m actually doing okay, although my "okay" would probably be most people's "black pit of despair" or whatever. Happy holidays!

Clubs I'm in:

!LFATs-Of-Bee-Bryant